lost in distraction

what will you do when the distraction ends
when suddenly the world stands still

what will you do when it punches your gut
and all you can do is keep breathing
just barely

what will you do when there’s nowhere to hide
when you choke on your fear, alone

what will you do when the story ends
without you

what will you do when sleep will not come
when you reach out and find nothing

what will you do when something frightens you
and scares you through the night

what will you do when there’s no words left
when everything around you crumbles

what will you do when all the color has drained
and only grey remains

what will you do when the light leaves you life
and leaves you alone in the dark

what will you do when there’s no one to share
no laughter no warmth and no life

you drown on your tears and you choke on your breath
and you wish your heart was dead and deaf

Eight-fold Path

Songtext for Tendonitis

intro
down in the abyss of my heart
eternal duty claws apart
my being

darkness is strong within my soul
always the battle for control

there’s no relenting no retreat
no hope for truce and no defeat
two sides are one and yet not whole
witness the battle for control

chorus
the eight-fold path
strive to achieve
the tears of things
hope to relieve

bridge
must not falter
not give in
karmic respite
past live’s sin
endless circle
loop and repeat
heathen in hell
no way to cheat

interlude
don’t deny my right to be
darkness is a part of me
for as long as light shines free
shadows bloom eternally

bridge
must not falter
not give in
karmic respite
past live’s sin
endless circle
loop and repeat
heathen in hell

Look Back

Lyrics I wrote for a song by Penelope Athena
Check out her Insta!

verse
everybody said that I must loose
everybody said that hope has faded

bridge
but I have never been someone to break
I am alive and strong – keep fighting on
I motivate myself cause that’s the key – the key

chorus
come here me scream
feel my desire
come hear my dream
witness my fire

rap
inside you you’ll find
all you’ll ever need
potential unbound
capacity freed

go live your dreams
for what it is worth
the fire within you let’s you conquer the world

more rap
I had found my strength
the limit was the sky
I felt a power surge
an indescribable high

now hear me all
that you aswell might be freed
believe in yourself
it’s all you’ll ever needc

chorus
come here me scream
feel my desire
come hear my dream
witness my fire

Bellum, Parabellum

Songtext for Tendonitis.
Shoutout to soon to be bestselling author Seth Jenkins for proof reading.

verse I
muster the troops for war for
this time we’ll end it all
to victory my faithful friends
that’s not how this story ends
condition their minds to mush
believe in the burning bush
march onward to victory
for everyone out there shall see

bridge
si vis pacem
parabellum

verse II
fighting for the Motherland
to seize all that we can
destroying our enemy
every chance that we can see
pillaging their houses and
defiling their spouses to see
them in wicked agony
thriving on their misery

chorus
orders received
stop their advances
artillery Siege
no second chances
down in the mud
down in the trenches
drowning in blood
withering senseless

bridge
si vis pacem
parabellum

verse III
the ditches are filled with blood
the vengeance gone with the flood
resistance was met in vain
and all that stays is grief and pain
gravestones in the morning mist while
all the women go unkissed
forgiven you can be in hell
no one can break this satan’s spell

chorus
orders received
stop their advances
artillery Siege
no second chances
down in the mud
down in the trenches
drowning in blood
withering senseless

outro
he who declares war
does not perish in the commotion

Frühling

Frühling

wenn der augen tiefe angenehm
sich zwei verliern im wunderschön
die pupillen sich verlangend weiten
und zur tat man möchte schreiten

wenn körper aneinander reiben
und das gefühl, kaum zu beschreiben
sich verlangen bemerkbar macht
und viel zu kurz ist jede nacht

wenn zeit vergeht im wirbelwind
und sich verliert man sehr geschwind
wenn das denken dir vergeht
und den kopf sie dir verdreht

wenn schmetterlinge munter tummeln
in deinem bauch ein stetes brummeln
sich sterne zeigen auch am tag
und vögel singen unverzagt

dann weisst du hier bist du daheim
so schön kann nur der frühling sein

River of Time

In the past there was a time
where nothing could go wrong
where every little moment lived
was cause for rhyme and song
where one would float in joyous bliss
without concern for watches
where hearts would beat in gleeful rhythm
and nothing was obnoxious

In the past there was a time
a beauty floating on
a river running ever swift
along the whistling swan
on towards the endless wides
of lakes and ocean lands
alas the time has ended since
and lost the meadow lands

No matter where the thoughts may roam
they always keep returning
to the beauty that was lost
to passion fires burning
to being second in the race
for loneliness’ extinction
to lose affections tender touch
to senseless mind addiction

As time moves on the memory fades
the wounds will turn to scars
the error of a broken dream
sent far out to the stars
the scars will stay forevermore
no surgeon can correct
the false hope caused disfigurements
indifference and neglect

Live the Moment

Random Thoughts & Mantras – Savour the Moment

Today no poetry. Just some poetic toughts and mantras to make your life worth living.
I think I will make a series of this. Let me know what You think.

Savour the Moment.

When You are about to do something or experience something with someone don’t fret about the future, don’t let Your wristwatch or mobile ruin the experience. Just savour the Moment and let what may come, come! Be open for changes in Your plans. Experience, Savour, Live, Love and take it in with an open mind and heart. It will give You way more than any plan you might want to stick to.

If You are always thinking of what comes next it will blind You to the beauty of the moment. Don’t try to push Yourself to stick to the plan you made during your leisure time. To experience the moment at it’s fullest You need to be in the moment.  That’s impossible if You are looking at Your watch all the time thinking: “Oh… we need to hurry up, in 20 minutes we have to be there and then there and then there.” Try to be open about your schedule. Enjoy the time You have with whomever you have around you no matter if it’s Your spouse, Your friends, Your lover or just Yourself. Time is precious, yes, but if You run around all day without actually living the moments, making memorys of them, it is worthless. You will have done a lot of stuff but will have experienced nothing.

Live the Moment. Love the Moment. Experience the Moment. Feel Yourself in the Moment. Make a Memory!

Ruins

Ruins

Gedicht aus dem Archiv: 2008

my life is bombed to pieces
like ruins, hollow, tall
before I can rebuild it
I have to find them all

Some of them have left me
and some I cannot find
cause when I’m looking for them
its dark and I seem blind

I wish it never happened
I wish you never told
I’ve lived in blissful ignorance
no sorrow, soaring, bold

Alas its useless thinking
I did what I thought best
cause I still keep on sinking
have no safe place to rest

I know I will be better
as time keeps marching on
and soon the happy and the bad,
all memories will be gone

still don’t know how to help it
I cannot simply choose
I cannot find the peace I need
I cannot hang it loose

my soul it needs a partner
a mirror to reflect
and as it goes with deep desires
I cannot just neglect

my soul it bore this burden
for all the life I knew
I need it badly this I know
I’ll never get it through

I see myself all crippled, old
surrounded by the dark
towards the shiny light there is
alone I sadly walk

Das schwarze Loch

Das schwarze Loch

Aus dem Archiv: 2007

es war ein mal ein junge
zu lieben war sein ziel
und geliebt zu werden
weil ihm das gefiel

er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
um in den wirren dieser welt
zu bilden einen satz

ich liebe dich so sprach er
und fühlen tat er‘s auch
doch als die erste liebe starb
riss es ein loch in seinen bauch

er kam darüber weg
doch er weinte stundenlang
immer wenn er sah und hörte
von einem sonnenuntergang

er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
er suchte, er versuchte
zu bilden einen satz

er fand die liebe wieder
ne andere war‘s jedoch
und als sie ihn verliess
hatte sein kopf dann auch ein loch

er kämpft sich aus den schatten
des abgrunds seines seins
und lebte weiter leise
und still sein einmaleins

er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
er suchte er versuchte
zu bilden einen satz

er fing nun an zu mauern
sein herz war zu verletzt
er wollte nie mehr trauern
nicht enden so zerfetzt

die mauern warn vollendet
so hoch aus angst und pein
und doch wollte der kleine
nicht mehr alleine sein

er fand ein neues mädchen
nur lieben wollt’ er es
doch die mauern warn im wege
nur langsam bröckelt es

die steine abzutragen
dauerte fast ein jahr
und als er es vollendet hat
da war sie nicht mehr da

ein loch in seiner wohnung
ein loch in seinem bauch
ein loch in seinem leben
ein loch es ist sich brauch

ein loch in seiner seele
ein loch in seinem herz
und wo er immer hinsieht
er findet nichts als schmerz

der junge, längst der manne
er weint nur noch allein
weil als sie ihn verlassen hat
da wollt‘ er nicht mehr sein

er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
er suchte er versuchte
und doch hat er es verpatzt

ich weiss wir warten alle
auf ein schönes happy end
doch alles was ihm bleibt
ist nur der schmerz….. der in seinen löchern brennt

Photo by Free Grunge Textures – www.freestock.ca

Weltschmerz bei Vollmond

Weltschmerz bei Vollmond

Ein Lichtlein ganz klein und doch hell und beständig
einst schien und erhellte das Herz und Gemüt.

Doch schattende Zweifel, unheilig Gedanken
ersticken das Licht das da blüht.

Es brennt die Erkenntnis der Angst der Gedanken
die fliessen mit unbändiger macht.

Und leise zerzischend mit schluchzenden Qualen
erlischt auch das letzte der Lichter allein in der Nacht.