Ruins
Gedicht aus dem Archiv: 2008
my life is bombed to pieces
like ruins, hollow, tall
before I can rebuild it
I have to find them all
Some of them have left me
and some I cannot find
cause when I’m looking for them
its dark and I seem blind
I wish it never happened
I wish you never told
I’ve lived in blissful ignorance
no sorrow, soaring, bold
Alas its useless thinking
I did what I thought best
cause I still keep on sinking
have no safe place to rest
I know I will be better
as time keeps marching on
and soon the happy and the bad,
all memories will be gone
still don’t know how to help it
I cannot simply choose
I cannot find the peace I need
I cannot hang it loose
my soul it needs a partner
a mirror to reflect
and as it goes with deep desires
I cannot just neglect
my soul it bore this burden
for all the life I knew
I need it badly this I know
I’ll never get it through
I see myself all crippled, old
surrounded by the dark
towards the shiny light there is
alone I sadly walk
Das schwarze Loch
Aus dem Archiv: 2007
es war ein mal ein junge
zu lieben war sein ziel
und geliebt zu werden
weil ihm das gefiel
er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
um in den wirren dieser welt
zu bilden einen satz
ich liebe dich so sprach er
und fühlen tat er‘s auch
doch als die erste liebe starb
riss es ein loch in seinen bauch
er kam darüber weg
doch er weinte stundenlang
immer wenn er sah und hörte
von einem sonnenuntergang
er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
er suchte, er versuchte
zu bilden einen satz
er fand die liebe wieder
ne andere war‘s jedoch
und als sie ihn verliess
hatte sein kopf dann auch ein loch
er kämpft sich aus den schatten
des abgrunds seines seins
und lebte weiter leise
und still sein einmaleins
er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
er suchte er versuchte
zu bilden einen satz
er fing nun an zu mauern
sein herz war zu verletzt
er wollte nie mehr trauern
nicht enden so zerfetzt
die mauern warn vollendet
so hoch aus angst und pein
und doch wollte der kleine
nicht mehr alleine sein
er fand ein neues mädchen
nur lieben wollt’ er es
doch die mauern warn im wege
nur langsam bröckelt es
die steine abzutragen
dauerte fast ein jahr
und als er es vollendet hat
da war sie nicht mehr da
ein loch in seiner wohnung
ein loch in seinem bauch
ein loch in seinem leben
ein loch es ist sich brauch
ein loch in seiner seele
ein loch in seinem herz
und wo er immer hinsieht
er findet nichts als schmerz
der junge, längst der manne
er weint nur noch allein
weil als sie ihn verlassen hat
da wollt‘ er nicht mehr sein
er suchte und er suchte
zu finden seinen platz
er suchte er versuchte
und doch hat er es verpatzt
ich weiss wir warten alle
auf ein schönes happy end
doch alles was ihm bleibt
ist nur der schmerz….. der in seinen löchern brennt
Weltschmerz bei Vollmond
Ein Lichtlein ganz klein und doch hell und beständig
einst schien und erhellte das Herz und Gemüt.
Doch schattende Zweifel, unheilig Gedanken
ersticken das Licht das da blüht.
Es brennt die Erkenntnis der Angst der Gedanken
die fliessen mit unbändiger macht.
Und leise zerzischend mit schluchzenden Qualen
erlischt auch das letzte der Lichter allein in der Nacht.
The Lonely Bard
Songtext, noch unverwendet
verse I
when worlds collide
when answers hide
when the glowing star
gloats from a far
verse II
the goal is clear
but far from near
the way is lost
unsure the cost
chorus I
and waterfalls of fireflies
are drowning in the eye
and thunderclouds of loneliness
are buried in the sky
when waterfalls of fireflies
are drowning in the eye
then butterflies in barren lands
over withering flowers cry
until they die
verse III
when songs of joy
seem all too coy
and the lonely bard
feels the piercing shard
verse IV
when comfort peaks
yet trouble speaks
into the soul
lost is the goal
chorus
and waterfalls of fireflies
are drowning in the eye
and thunderclouds of loneliness
are buried in the sky
when waterfalls of fireflies
are drowning in the eye
then butterflies in barren lands
over withering flowers cry
until they die
Mindless Void
Songtext für Tendonitis – Mindless Void
verse I
witness the all seeing eye
in peril and disgrace
harvest in your conscious lies
the truth beyond it’s face
verse II
read the papers hear the songs
of panic and deceit
the sovereign, long forgotten still
struck blind by hate and greed
chorus
end the silence of ignorant bliss
and don’t you dare deny
open your mind and break the spell
heed absolution’s cry
focus all your strenght within
an endless thunderstorm
fight the shadows oppressive touch
or hope will soon be gone
verse III
banish the insanity
of systems wrought to rule
snap out of all the mindless voids
hypnotic, vain and cruel
verse IV
creative thrived the mind of man
beyond the wheels of time
yet now consumed the spirit dies
beneath the silver dime
chorus
end the silence of ignorant bliss
and don’t you dare deny
open your mind and break the spell
heed absolution’s cry
focus all your strenght within
an endless thunderstorm
fight the shadows oppressive touch
or hope will soon be gone
Ballad of the Need
Songtext für Tendonitis – Ballad of the Need
verse I
passion and compassion, selfless need
center of the world, in your sleep
wanted, needed, found, claimed and kept
used and broken heavy regret
bridge I
can you feel the need
filling all your nodes
can you feel the leech
feeding off your soul
chorus
your spirit gets emptied, day by day
less and less of you to stay
your soul dries out
out of the way
less and less of you to stay
alternate chorus (dropped)
darling, darling, baby don’t despair
possibilities everywhere
darling, darling, baby don’t deny
my love for you will never die
verse II
mindless thought adrift, and hard to find
everyone around you is blind
laughter in the air, brimming with need
filling every edge of your soul
bridge II
can you feel the burn
leaving you behind
every one around you
is blind
chorus
your spirit gets emptied, day by day
less and less of you to stay
your soul dries out, out of the way
less and less of you to stay
Stormreaper
Songtext für Tendonitis – Stormreaper
verse I
proud eagle fly’s with falsened flag
he’s ruling like a king
the phoenician princess lies idly by
and spreads her legs for him
verse II
her children, crying in despair
are still forced to obey
their granary shows threatening tilt
they don’t know what else to do or say
chorus
it’s coming soon, it’s almost about
a great revolution is ready to sprout
it’s coming soon, there is no doubt
justice is calling, is taking it’s route
verse III
they poke the great bear with a stick
until he won’t take it no more
and lashes out in anger with
his mighty prank for nuclear war
verse IV
phoenician whore been bought with ease
who pays the piper calls the tune
and reaching out in all their greed
they ride us blindly to our doom
chorus
it’s coming soon, it’s almost about
a great revolution is ready to sprout
it’s coming soon, there is no doubt
justice is calling, is taking it’s route
outro
they who sow wind
shall reap the whirlwind
they who sow wind
shall reap the storm
chorus
it’s coming soon, it’s almost about
a great revolution is ready to sprout
it’s coming soon, there is no doubt
justice is calling, is taking it’s route
outro
they who sow wind
shall reap the whirlwind
they who sow wind
shall reap the storm
Ship of Fools
Songtext für Tendonitis – Ship of Fools
intro
money is the root of evil
money is the root of evil
verse I
spin the wheel of fortune calling
out your dreams for all to hear
roll the dice of destiny to
turn the tide right now and here
verse II
lady luck gives soothing kisses (hahahahaha)
gone so soon yet hope is high
ship of fools keeps sailing on
to better lands to try and die
chorus
can you see the downward spiral
spinning out of your control
can you hear the demon whisper
soothing lies into your soul
re-intro
money is the root of evil
money is the source of power
verse III
the arrow of outrageous fortune
escape the mortal coil with haste
the downfall follows surely after
vale of tears shall be embraced
verse IV
write the numbers in your blood
paint the darkness with your tears
seal your fate for evermore
ride the lightning of your fears
chorus
can you see the downward spiral
spinning out of your control
can you hear the demon whisper
soothing lies into your soul
Clandestine
Songtext für Tendonitis – Clandestine
introverse I
burning legion in disguise
hiding in plain sight
they know that you are powerless
they know about your darkest secrets
verse I
they find you when you’re hidden
they sell your dreams before you know
they vanquish without touch
they close the collar more and more
verse II
they poison all your rivers
your forests fall to their demands
they’re showing no regret
their master-plan it knows no end
chorus
come and catch us, come along
come and find us, all you know is wrong
introverse II
money, information, power
controlled by far to few
give bread and games to the people
divide, conquer and rule
verse III
they feed you sweet, sweet venom
it tastes so good in it’s disguise
this fucking drug addiction
your barren offspring pays the price
verse IV
they turn you into puppets
they wash your brain with every breath
they kill your love with greed
and drench your soul in fears of death
chorus
come and catch us, come along
come and find us, all you know is wrong
interlude
make yourself free
free of the fear
free of the pain
free of their lies
make yourself free
free of the greed
free of the need
free of their lies
chorus
come and catch us, come along
come and find us, all you know is wrong
Human Recreation
Songtext für Tendonitis – Human Recreation
verse I
torn up twisted blackened heart
pulsing gloomy pumping veins
darkened laughter in the soul
happy cheating human ways
pre-chorus
man is evil there is no light
the world is doomed enjoy the ride
man is wicked and born to fight
no matter if its wrong or right
chorus
It’s not about vengeance
It’s not about retaliation
It’s not about balancing the books
It’s just human recreation
verse II
let’s make war there’s oil discovered
exploiting screaming more more more
kill their children kill their men
take their women make them whore
pre-chorus
man is evil there is no light
the world is doomed enjoy the ride
man is wicked and born to fight
no matter if its wrong or right
chorus
It’s not about vengeance
It’s not about retaliation
It’s not about balancing the books
It’s just human recreation
interlude
our nature – demands
the evil – plans
we cannot resist
the evil – twist
vengeance and retaliation
is the humans recreation
verse III
no one can tell where this is going
planet earth will take revenge
volcanoes earthquakes tidal waves
planet earth will cleanse the stench
pre-chorus
man is evil there is no light
the world is doomed enjoy the ride
man is wicked and born to fight
no matter if its wrong or right
chorus
it’s not about vengeance
it’s not about retaliation
it’s not about balancing the books
it’s just human recreation